Wajah-wajah penawar duka
Today is their special day..Amyza is 4 and Ain is 3. As a mother, of course I wanted to see my children grown up well and willing to do anything juz to make them happy. As I woke up this morning, I saw my kids were still sleeping. From their purity faces, it reflects everything to me. Dah besar anak aku dahhh…
Given birth to both of them inspired me a truly experience in my life. I can still remember…looking back to the previous moments, I feel scared. 10 disember 2003 was actually my weekly pregnancy checkup at Pusat Rawatan Islam Jalan Ipoh. Actually my due date was on 25th Disember 2003, but unfortunately, when the doctor checked on my BP, he feels uncomfortable. My BP was higher than normal. And I can still remember that I almost fell down whenever I wanted to stand up. I assume that it was normal cases, but the doctor said it was a bit dangerous as the baby could be drowning. He suggested me to deliver earlier and without any compromise he forced me to be warded. I called up my mother to pack all my stuff and rush to the hospital. My mother was panic at first but I told her that it was just a small matter. At that time I was alone as hubby was still working in Seremban. So I managed everything including matters of ward registration on my own.
I was admitted for one night and the doctor told me that by the next day I have to deliver the baby by induce. 11 Disember 2003, very early in the morning I was ordered by the nurses to be in the labor room. At first, I was a bit scared, my mother and hubby were still not around, as they promised to come at 10 am. I asked the nurse to wait for them for a while, but the nurses refused as they said the doctor has given me a medicine, dun know what medicine is, but it is just to break that air ketuban. So I agreed.
In the labor room, I was induced with 2 pines of water. After 4 hours, I can feel the contraction all over my stomach. Then they add another 1 pine. It was so pain. The contraction become frequent, as I can remember every 5 minutes, and that is a sign that the baby is about to enter the womb top. My hubby was in the room as well, and keeps on asking me to be patient.
The contraction became harder. And all the nurses and doctor were already in the room. It was 6.30 p.m. I can still remember, as this is my first time, so I dun know how to push. Huhuhuhuh. It was a bit suspend as the doctor has gave up. They asked me if I was unable to push, and they wanted to use vacuum.
But I refused. I tried so hard and after 1 hour, the baby came out. The first thing I saw on my baby was the lips. The lip was so red. Like mine..heehehe
And suddenly I cried when the baby was on my chest with blood all over the body. She was so small..Oh my God. What a great experience. And now the baby has turn to 4 years old. Heheheh.
The first experience was a bit hard I can say. It was totally different for the second experience. The experience was like almost the same, but the “journey” was a bit different. It was a same date..11 disember 2004. At that time, we were celebrating Myza year one birthday party at my place in Seremban. But I can feel strange all over my body, as I can feel some contraction in my stomach. I told hubby, and he asked me to go to the clinic. But I juz told him since my due is another 2 weeks time, so I take it easy la.
At that particular day, eventho I can feel contraction starting from morning, but I managed to cook and prepare my main dish for that party celebration. We celebrated the party with my pale face. Strange kan? And because of the spirit to celebrate my first year daughter’s birthday, I keep ignoring all the pain!! terer tu…
After the party over, I can’t stand it anymore. I told hubby, the frequency of the contraction is between 10 minutes each. I was not feeling good; this is not a normal contraction. Hubby rushed me to Pusat Rawatan Islam Senawang and at that time I can’t even walk because of the pain. I was sweating all over the body and all the way to the centre, I was terribly painful.
When I reached there, the doctor told me that my womb has been opened for 5 cm. That means I can deliver in anytime!! I was admitted to the labor room immediately. Everyone was rushing, and the doctor told hubby to pack all my stuffs cause I will deliver in anytime. I was panicked as I saw everybody ( nurses ) rushing everywhere to ensure that everything is completely ready.
O My God
The doctor scolded me for not coming earlier. The baby has a potential to be drown if I was a bit late. As I told her the contraction was not harder until an hour before so I just assume that it was a normal pain. I was admitted to the labor room and at the same time I asked hubby to back home and pack all my stuff.
A few minutes later, about 10 minutes time, I cannot stand anymore. The contraction was harder. I was sweating. I told the doctor..I wanted to push as I can feel the baby is coming out. Yups,. I was correct. With only 15 minutes struggling with the painful, the baby came out. Woohooo….it was so easy. I heard some stories that the second time would be much easier. And I was so relieved cause not until an hour I was in the labor room, the baby was delivered safely. By the time my hubby arrived, he was shocked to see me and the baby were safe. He was like…”eh dah ke? Cepatnye??” hahahaha. Plus, the doctor congratulates me for giving birth in such a short time: in just 20 minutes. Alhamdulillah..
Both different experiences teach me a lot. Even though it is almost 5 years ago, the moment is still fresh. Now I know, it is not easy to be a mother. We are struggling in death and live situation. All husbands should be at their wife’s side to see how pain the wife is.
I love my children very much. They are my life and my spirit. I dun bother anything other than giving the best to them. I’m willing to do anything…just name it.
For this year’s birthday, I dun ask much. It is enough to see them healthy and happy!
Today is our day. Today is the 5th celebration of our anniversary. One kiss is enough to tell him how much I love him dis morning. I whispered to his ears..we were meant to each other, let's be a great lover forever..I want nothing, except his true love. 5 years is not a short period I guess. But I’m proud that we are able to face all the obstacles in our marriage. It is not easy cause I was married at my age of 24 and he was 27. Quite young I guess so. However we never regret that, in fact I feel grateful cause at the age of 25 I already have my first princess. That is the precious prezzie for our first anniversary 4 years ago. 
