Bosan

Pernah tak korang terasa tiba tiba je bosan? Tanpa sebab musabab yang ada logika, tetiba je rasa bosan..pernah tak?

Macam tu lah yang aku rasa skang..

Tetiba je aku rasa BOSAN!!!!

BOSAN!!!! Tolong!!!!

Kisah Myza

As usual, I was sooo bz with office matters, loads of work and sometimes I do think of myself......."bila lah aku nak bukak company sdr nih..?" . Tu bila time aku tgh stress la, and it will automatically came out in my mind. To me no matter how stressful you are but when you were at home, at least you can see your lovely kids smiling and laughing by the time you were about to enter your home.

Time tu la akan rasa betapa rindu dan kasihnya aku kepada dorang. Sometimes aku rasa tersangat kesian melihat anak anakku yang di tinggalkan seharian dari pagi sampai ke malam baru nampak muka..so sad bila setiap kali balik baru dekat gate nih, they all dah melompat sakan dah..so eager ni ibu dia dah balik..so sad..time tu la aku rasa nak nangis. Tapi memanangkan yang aku ni tak mampu lagi nak menghandle kan business ( konon nak setup business) so aku gagahi jugak la. Nak wat camana..

Anyway, i’m so lucky jugak coz i have an understanding hubby who will always beside me. Even when I stress sesangat and normally I will push my sour face and yet hubby will always know what action should be taken in order to handle me..( cam bagus je ek )..so, thanks ayang for your patient!! but I’m not a bullies okay,, aku cuma mengamuk sikit sikit je la.

Ok, enaf about my bad habbit tuh…

Now I want to highlight a little bit bout Myza..anak dara aku sorang nih. She is 3 ++ now, but I notice that she is quite emphasized in everything that she heard and she knows. Nampak dah ada peningkatan dari aspek pemikiran die la and dia dah pandai merajuk atau jauh hati kalau ada yang tak kena.

It surprises me!!! Macam ada sekali tu, dia teringin sangat nak makan ais krim , but die baru je elok dr batuk so aku tak kasi la. Aku kan agak strict kan so, kalau ada yang aku tak kasi tu maknanye she never get it la…full stop. And yet she dah mula macam merajuk sakan nih..diam je sepanjang masa. Kalau dulu dia akan lupa apa yang dia mintak selepas kita get her attention with other things. Asyik la tengok kartun atau cicak man kegemaran dia tu. So aku pelik la, sebab normally she will enjoy main all her toys and buat bising sampai satu lorong leh dengar kan.

Then I thought of asking her why she was so upset. Belum sempat aku tanya lagi, she started to cry..( sambil tengok kartun nih )..alahai anak…aku dapat rasa la dia merajuk sbb aku tak beli ais krim tu, tapi tak pernah lak aku tengok dia merajuk sampai gitu sekali. Aduhh....camana nak cakap konsep tak bleh makan aiskrim sebab nanti dia akan batuk nih. So puas aku pikir and lastly aku bagi gak la..sebab kesian sangat nengok dia camtuh. Tak sampai ati lak aku and aku kata

" ni last , no more , okay ? " she agreed.

Aduhai…aku jadik lemah la pulak ngan air mata dia tuh. Tak sampai hati tengok dia kempunan nanti. Korang kalau dah ada anak nanti mesti akan rasa camtu jugak punya. Don’t blame me okay..it’s true, you will feel something was not right if you make her cry and sad. You will feel sad too and you will take it as your responsibility to make her smile again. Same to Ain jugak..but dia still tak paham sangat lagi, tak macam kakak dia la..

So malam tu bila aku tengok dia tengah tidur dengan lenanya, aku jadi amat kesal sebab kadang kadang aku agak berkeras dengan dia. Ialah, aku kan ibu yang garang..heheh…she is too small to understand and sometimes it makes me think of some formula on how to tell her that sometimes she may not get everything that she wants. Oh no..now I know, it’s not easy to become a good mother. To become a mother tu maybe semua orang boleh but it is not easy to dig out the things inside her to be compared with us yang dah tua bangka nih.

It’s not easy, people. Not easy at all. And aku dapat rasakan yang dia dah mula faham kalau aku kata macam ni, dia kena tau sebab apa aku kata macam tu. Tapi still macam susah la nak buat dia faham that kekadang setiap kali kalau aku nak pegi kerja, she will begging me untuk cuti. Sampai sebak sebak suara suh aku cuti. So i have to tell her that we have a responsiblity and that is for her goods jugak la kan. Yet, I don't how to explain, and everytime she asked me about that, i will tell lies that macam macam alasan berbentuk tak masuk akal akan aku bagitau dia, aku akan kata..."bos ibu suruh jugak, kalau tak dia marah lah", atau aku kata "esok ibu cuti, esok kita jalan" , padahal esok aku kerja lagi...hmm u know , things like that la...yang kekadang setiap kali dalam tren on my way to office i will always hear her voice telling that she needs me at home.

Alahai...

Determination of life

What can we determined of life? Fair or unfair?

To me life is just like a wheel. Sometimes we are at the top and sometimes we are down.

Is my life complete? Hmmm….complete in my own way, I mean I do have everything now, I have a great husband who can be my hubby, a friend to chat, a victims when I am depressed. I have my cute little kids , they are my life and I can’t ever life without them. I have my own carrier, even though being in a corporate world is actually not my dreams, I wish I could be someone in a broadcasting field, coz I dreamed of being like Wan Zaleha Radzi. Damn, she is my idols. I like to be like her, she is full with confidence, beautiful, talented, sexy in her own style and she has her own charisma, I could say, she is damn good.!

But, unfortunately I can say that it is just my dreams….hmm..can I consider it as failed? Failed to become what I intend to be. Am I?

Or can I consider it as faith. So is my life complete now?

What a stupid question

I'm 29 today!! dammit!

Im 29 today!!!believe it or not. Well, age is just a number..so I will still keep young inside..hehehe tua sgt ke 29???

Anyway, for this new year of 29 I have a few wishes which I consider my coming goals…


1. To become a good muslimah
2. To become a good wife, a good mother and daughter
3. To become a businesswoman
4. Get a new car
5. To practice healthy lifestyle. More on gym activities
6. To keep and tighten my relationship with all my good friends
7. To invest in property
8. Get myself pregnant. Maybe to get a baby boy!

Hopefully my dreams will come true. and I would like to thank to all of my friends, colleagues, not forgotten my brother for the great wishes. luv it!!!

Kids activities..

Weekend. Busy with kids, playing around with Myza and Ain, watch dvd mostly cartoons and Cicak Man which is myza’s favorite now. Asyik tengok tu je…naik muak aku.

Hubby was not around, busy again with his business matter.. so I am the ones who took over all the tasks of bibik which is spent time with my kids. Playing all kinds of toys, get my kids outing to the mall, sleeping all the way from afternoon to the evening, not much cooking activities cause hubby was not around so I cooked as simple as goreng goreng stuffs.

That's all for now. No mood to talk now. tata.

Meeting ..Eating..

We had a presentation meeting for our own products today. It was took place at my boss’s place and we gathered at office first before moved and convoy to Boss’s place. Hmm..i could say it was a santai meeting where we have our own product presentation and at the same time we were fed with a lovely movely food prepared by my boss’s wife. How kind and we enjoyed ourselves eating first coz I dun think we can concentrate on our jobs if the stomach was empty. Hik. Again, we had a cit cat first before entered a serious talk on our meeting. Hmm.. I can suggest to my bos, next time we will have a barbeque meeting and enjoyed ourselves with fun activities.

End of meeting about 4 o’clock, and then we went back to office with stomach FULL. Get back to office with my eyes focusing on my laptops again and restructure for the next coming products to be delivered to my boss soon.

Ok, let me have a deep breathe first now before i cramped out my head with my coming tasks.